I really have nothing to report recently. Just waiting for my next ortho appointment and started to get super nervous. I'm extremely worried about work and finances. I told my boss I would need two weeks off. My gut tells me I'll need much more than that, but I hope I'm wrong. I've only been at this job for 4 months so I'm not elegible for short term disability or FMLA. With the separation being final, (Keir moved out on the 8th(woot woot)) money is a bit of an issue. I have very little savings and very little PTO accrued. So, I'm just praying it will all work out.
UHG, it would have been soooo much less stressful if I did this as a teen. No job to loose, no bills to worry about, no daughter to need help with. And, I am a firm believer that ignorance is bliss because I know way more than I can calmly handle about this surgery and all its possible complications. I'm starting to second guess if it's worth the risk. There's a chance with any surgery that one could die, have a stroke, yadda yadda. Mara needs a healthy, capable mother...what if I end up gorked out from a blood clot, or die?! "SIGH" okay, I really think I'm ready for that Xanax now.
On a brighter note, I've lost 5 lbs on my Nutrisystem diet. Only 60 more to go!!!!! Think positive people