Day 4

Pics from last night.  I was too tired to post them yesterday.  I was in a lot of pain.  I think I over did it.  The OS told me to try for a walk by Monday, so I got showered and dressed, attempted and failed at eating pastina, and drove with my Mom up the hill to Nanna's house to go for a walk.  I only managed 20 min because the cold wind was really hurting my face.  We visited with Nanna for a few min then I waited in the car while Mom picked up a few things at the grocery store.  I did a lot of talking to my Mom and her friend who came to visit and didn't really sleep but for a few minutes yesterday afternoon.  All in all, way to much for day 4 for sure!

Day 3

My husband brought my daughter over for a bit today.  It was nice to see her, but she looked so confused.  She couldn't really understand me, and she looked at me really funny, but, she didn't cry.  I'm glad I got to see her.

 I graduated to a spoon today.  It was hard and messy, but it felt so much better to eat my runny mashed potatoes with a spoon.  Meds still go down better with a syringe though.  Today I ate yogurt, broccoli soup, pureed fruit, 2 glasses of milk with protein powder, runny mashed potatoes and mashed carrots.  It all hurt like hell, but I'm trying to keep up with my food so I heal well.  My days are consumed with meds, meals, brushing and rinsing, napping then starting it all over.  I expect the next few days will be a lot of the same. 

Some pics from today

My daughter sent me her birthday hat from Chuck E Cheeze to make me feel better.

Day 2

not feeling so hot day 2 for sure, but I'm trying

Day 1

Here's a pic of the morning I left the hospital...about 28 hours post op


And here are two pics from that evening of day 1

Day 0

few hours post op

I'm alive!

I'm a hot mess but I'm trying to be greatful.  I'm alive, awake and functional (sort of).  Not still stuck in a hospital and on the road to better days.  Have pics but I totally don't have the energy to post them. Can hardly stay awake to type this.

Surgery went well I'm told.  6 hours as exptected.  I started to have a lot of swelling on the table, so I'm swollen much more than normal.  But the OS says everyone reacts differently and my tissues are just really sensitive.  Unfortunately I also have a lot of swelling in my joint, so my jaw is kind of out of place and very painful.  it feels dislocated and the surgeon says it should goback into place once the swelling goes down.  for now, lots of steriods, lots of ice, and as much pain medication as I'm allowed.  Hoping it all works out cuz this kinda sucks right now.  Every muscle in my body from my waist up hurts and my face is KILLING me.  Hopefully the swelling goes down soon so I can swallow better.  right now I have to swallow with my head back, just using my tounge because my jaw won't close.  good times!!

Still working on greatful.

T minus 1

one more day

My nerves have taken over.  I'm spontaneously bursting into tears more than once per day now and I seem to be constantly fighting the urge to throw up.  No fun at all, but probably normal.